You told me that you like sunset better
but
before I even got to know you
I liked dawn better
where new lives began with new hopes and resolutions
but now
it seems the other way around
you change my perception
being locked up at home
with nowhere else to go
and nobody to turn to
slowly and gradually
I fell into the trap of wanting you more
yearning for you
every waking hour
it was exhaustive and insane
when I was almost cheated that day
the worst day in my life
I confessed my love to you
it took you one hour
but your refuse
came at me
so glaringly clear that
It broke my little heart
I felt like dying
you said that we are just friends
no more no less
so
it had been my own heart lying to me all along
thought that at least
at least
you felt something for me
but no
you didn't
you never
it's just your flirting skills
it's just you replying the messages of an annoying customer
politely
you never felt anything for me
not now
not ever
why am I still struggling now
why
