so called friend...

Reading books
Dreaming lives
Hoping things
These books
had helped me so much
in healing
my aching soul.
To find answers in such and such situations
until I no longer care for the answers
but the pleasures it brings me.
Stop caring is a way.
Stop caring for those who do not worth it is a way.
I am the mistress of my own heart.
Nobody can disrupt it except me.
Certainly not you who constantly hurt me.
You continually and constantly add in to the piles of hurt you had done me.
But, never mind.
I will rub it off and nothing you can do anymore.
You can done no harm or hurt anymore.
I will not allow such kindness.
Indifference is all I have for you now.

友情，究竟是什么？

看着角落发黄的照片
思念的一角开始摇晃
遗忘本身就是苦味草
明知苦还偏要吞下去
记忆是不会骗人感情
只是转头记忆情仍留
凝视照片的心不肯信
多年以后情与心已飞
能留下的是刺心回忆
不肯远走高飞的我情

STOP!

Maybe I should try to not to hold on too tight to the things that I value so much because it's hurting me inside.
It's not healthy for my soul.
It's pricking a hole in my heart until it becomes larger and larger.
The blood keeps dropping and I know it is not long before I will break down.
I should stop the emotions from taking control of my mind and let the brain takes charge here.
I know I should stop it anyhow no matter what.
I will then have myself back again.
Yeah me!

放弃

这段破破烂烂的感情
太痛
太难熬
太压抑
太心碎
只好
离开
放下一切回忆
不回头
潇洒
走
什么都不带走

图片摘自动漫

伙伴

我要的，
是携手相伴的
同伴
不需要
太多话语
一个眼神
一个拥抱
一个点头
我就
满足了
不需要
腻在一起的感情
只需要
彼此心中有对方
有爱
什么都无所谓了

I really miss YOU

I know I've been acting tough...
I know that it seems like I don't care...
I know that it seems like I am happy...
I know that it seems like I don't care a bit...
but what else could I lose?
at certain point, I'll break down
in this little secret land that only I live in...
nobody will know...
nobody need to know...
nobody cares to know...
but I was such a weak person...
I cannot be tough...
its just an acting part that I play everyday in order to get everybody
off my lane...to not bother about me...
at some points, I just hope for something else that I will never get...
It turns out to be totally different from what I've been dreaming...
and I reject it because I don't like it...
I just...just need a quiet silent place to live in...
hope I can drown the other voices with my own voice...
but cannot...this land is fulled of so many people who wants everyone to listen
to their opinions...as if I care a tiny bit about it...
I just need a tranquil and peaceful life...
calmness...
I just need a pat on my shoulder...and
no words...but silent companion...

HOPE

We're certainly not here to be punished...
either be it happiness or disasters...
we still have what people usually call...HOPE
as long as we keep faith in ourselves,
there is no way that we can't enjoy our lives
despite the tears, the fights, the struggles, the conflicts
and everything...
These so called roadblocks will keep on visiting us throughout our lives...
like it or not,
we'll have to deal with it
desperately
or
happily.
As long as we're determined to lead a "MY" life,
everything will scatter the way it is meant to be.
and don't be afraid.
Keep HOPING!